what is it to create within mess?


emily oliveira

01-30-2026

i never had an organized art practice
and I believe that can be a good thing.

there is the idea: everyone knows what they're doing.
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NOBODY IS OMNISCIENT!!!!

my current hell right now⤵⤵

whythehellamihere

we must try new things (even if it's uncomfortable and messy)
i will tell it to you through [code], something new to me


it’s important to feel vindicated in my[your] practice
i will show an example

my first "messy" success:

”hey dad,”
2025


i made this within a few days
not to say you should procrastinate (like me)


but apparently, people really liked it.

at first i didn't know why.

BUT!!!!


i learned that being messy, experimenting with limited time
people showed a lot of support for me


and experimenting felt fufilling.

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my art practice then went from final products
to constant 'what ifs', even if it was way out of my depth


as of now i’m researching circuitry and soldering
(for me) the truly difficult practices are what i find myself enjoying the most

PART TWO

what did i mean by 'messy' earlier?

it is to see organization in chaos [organized chaos]

development comes from doing!

it can feel frustrating, and not planning things mean
‘unplanned’ results (ie. rushed content)

no so successful messy example:

what is it to be dead

for all the hard work i did, i flopped on the ending (personal) and it was hard to humble myself

having a messy art
practice means making mistakes


authentic practices
can only go so far until you lose sight of the project

PART THREE

how can mess be utilized?

the term ‘mess’ is used negatively in most situations
i believe there can be a nuanced meaning to ‘utilize’ mess

mess as a form of:

mess is a personal reflection: it can be an artistic expression
but mess(chaos) needs an opposite, organization(order) to gauge the artistic and the technical.


ORDER

CHAOS

but most of all I think mess is realizing it’s okay to be ‘okay’ at something

perfection is the organized word for practicing a shit ton

ANYWAY

ONTO FUTURE STUFF!!

SHIT IM INTERESTED IN!!!!

CONCLUSION?

creating mess is to be fulfilled

being messy is to make mistakes

utilizing messiness is to find balance

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